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A slow progression

I am bipolar and a recovering anorexic made fat by both side effects of bipolar medication, and a damaged thyroid caused by Lithium. Living single and alone, its not only a challenge to cook for one, but it’s a daily battle to eat a nutritious, balanced diet. Or even just to eat at all. I transition between starvation, comfort and binge eating. Everything to extreme, and nothing balanced. This is my weekly journal documenting my eating patterns, moods and thoughts. An attempt to keep account of my successes and failures with food.

cream cheese and crackers

cream cheese and crackers

That then progressed to putting vienna sausages into boiling water.  Its not quite cooking, but I did use boiling water.  That has to count for something, right?

That then progressed to putting vienna sausages into boiling water. Its not quite cooking, but I did use boiling water. That has to count for something, right?

Wow! I grilled meat and chopped a salad.  But what you don't see is how much of it I ate.... not much

Wow! I grilled meat and chopped a salad. But what you don’t see is how much of it I ate…. not much

Ohmygod!  I put sweet corn in the oven and baked with butter.  Never knew I had it in me.  Probably going to be feasting on this for a few nights

Ohmygod! I put sweet corn in the oven and baked with butter. Never knew I had it in me. Probably going to be feasting on this for a few nights

 

Baking up a storm

I am bipolar and a recovering anorexic made fat by both side effects of bipolar medication, and a damaged thyroid caused by Lithium. Living single and alone, its not only a challenge to cook for one, but it’s a daily battle to eat a nutritious, balanced diet. Or even just to eat at all. I transition between starvation, comfort and binge eating. Everything to extreme, and nothing balanced. This is my weekly journal documenting my eating patterns, moods and thoughts. An attempt to keep account of my successes and failures with food.

I stuck pretty much to the same meal menu as I did last week. It works out so cost effect with not much preparation. I did, however, wait for it….. wait for it….. BAKE!! Yes, for the first time in at least two years I baked some biscuits. Cheese biscuits in fact. Savoury instead of sweet to satisfy my usual sugar craving. I have to say I’m excited. This is a big deal for me.

Some more good news is I’ve been peanut-guzzling free for 2 weeks now. Hopefully I’ll lose some weight. So all in all, its been an amazing week food wise.

 

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Making myself a priority

I am bipolar and a recovering anorexic made fat by both side effects of bipolar medication, and a damaged thyroid caused by Lithium. Living single and alone, its not only a challenge to cook for one, but it’s a daily battle to eat a nutritious, balanced diet. Or even just to eat at all. I transition between starvation, comfort and binge eating. Everything to extreme, and nothing balanced. This is my weekly journal documenting my eating patterns, moods and thoughts. An attempt to keep account of my successes and failures with food.

Another nourishing week. Cooked most nights, and ate leftovers the rest. Something I’ve noticed is I take better care of myself when single. Its made me realise how much of myself I ‘lose’ when in a relationship. The other person becomes the sole focus of my attention and I don’t make myself my own priority. I’m grateful for this realisation. Should a future relationship come along, I will be more aware of the use of my time.

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Body Beautiful

I am bipolar and a recovering anorexic made fat by both side effects of bipolar medication, and a damaged thyroid caused by Lithium. Living single and alone, its not only a challenge to cook for one, but it’s a daily battle to eat a nutritious, balanced diet. Or even just to eat at all. I transition between starvation, comfort and binge eating. Everything to extreme, and nothing balanced. This is my weekly journal documenting my eating patterns, moods and thoughts. An attempt to keep account of my successes and failures with food.

If you’re taking medication for bipolar disorder, chances are you will gain weight. Having an eating disorder makes it especially challenging to accept the bigger body I now reside in. Although my body feels shockingly foreign to me, I do try to embrace my new ‘curves’ and find Mika’s ‘Big Girl You Are Beautiful‘ a perfect fit in helping me change my frame of mind. To accept the new (and actually improved) me!

My eating is still a bit of pick at this pick at that. Eat straight from the can, a big bowl of ice cream for dinner and too much coffee. One triumph is I’m losing my insane craving for peanuts. I can only wonder what my next food compulsion will be. I’m keeping my fingers crossed that it will be celery or cucumber or somethin’ like that….

 

Nourishing body and mind – week 17

I am bipolar and a recovering anorexic made fat by both side effects of bipolar medication, and a damaged thyroid caused by Lithium. Living single and alone, its not only a challenge to cook for one, but it’s a daily battle to eat a nutritious, balanced diet. Or even just to eat at all. I transition between starvation, comfort and binge eating. Everything to extreme, and nothing balanced.

This is my weekly journal of some of my meals. An attempt to keep account of my successes and failures with food. I’ve thrown in some recipes and tips and tricks as I journey towards balanced, healthy eating.

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